As you may have noticed, I've been somewhat less active than usual when it comes to blog posts. Life has been, well, life. This summer has thrown plenty of harsh curve-balls my way, and although I might not be posting as often, I'm certainly still swinging. However, it isn't all bad. This summer has also brought about some great things as well. I thought I'd take the time to give you all a bit of an update as to what I've been up to, where I'm at, and where I'm headed!
Let's get the negative stuff over-with and out of the way first. Having gotten to a place in my own personal recovery where I feel stable and good, I never thought I would be facing the possibility of homelessness again. Yet, there I was, suddenly and without warning facing that very possibility. I gotta tell you guys, it really shook me up. Badly. I guess considering the first time around involved heavy substance abuse as a major contributing factor, I somehow naively let myself think that those were the only circumstances under which it could possibly happen again. Even thought I knew far better than this, when it came to myself, I admittedly thought I'd somehow see an opiate-related decline and have a pretty good idea what was coming if it continued down that path again.
Those weren't the circumstances, this time around. I feel extremely ignorant in my thinking that something drug-related would be the only way that I could possibly end up homeless again. I mean, c'mon, I've experienced homelessness, I've lived in a shelter; I know that drugs, while a common factor, are certainly NOT the only contributing factors to homelessness. I spent time with them. But for whatever reason, I kept this false notion that for me, it would definitely be drug related. But it wasn't. It was a simple case of socioeconomic discrimination against Mr. L and myself. I'm going to spare both you readers and myself the details, as nothing good comes from me rehashing it over and over again. It only bums me out, and serves to confirm that there are some very ignorant and hurtful people out there who truly see certain groups of people as less than themselves.
The threat of once again having no place to call home was, and still is, mentally jarring. To have it dangled over your head in an attempt to make you comply is a truly sickening feeling. It clouded my mind 24/7. Regardless of what I was doing, the thoughts of it broke through. Whether I was trying to have a conversation with Mr. L, attempting to do some writing, or simply just relax and watch a movie; unending thoughts on the subject bombarded their way into my consciousness, leaving me feeling beyond distracted and totally unable to concentrate. The situation, and the possibility of once again ending up homeless, were constantly intruding into my thoughts.
On a more positive note though, I have sorted out another option for housing come the first week of September. I cannot even begin to express how much I am looking forward to being free of this place and the discrimination that comes with it. I am counting down the days until Mr. L, Lulu and myself are able to move into our new home and start fresh. While it was very unexpected, both timing wise and financially, we are going to make it work. Our current place of residence has turned into a hole of negativity that completely clouds my mind, and the thought of having a positive new space to to start fresh in is beyond exciting. It isn't exactly what we were hoping for, but we will make it our own.
Keeping with the positive news, I've also been spending my time over the past few months working hard to help out with the 2015 FEDUP! Rally for Canadian Drug Policy Reform. The absolutely amazing Donna D. May recruited me to assist in the planning of, as well as attend the Rally itself, this coming September (You can learn more about Donna over at
Jac's Voice, and in a previous post of mine).
What exactly is this rally all about, you ask? The FEDUP! Rally is being held on September 30th, in Queen's Park, Toronto, where we will be making plenty of noise and advocating for Canadian drug policy reform that is based on science, epidemiology and fact. This year, we will be focusing on the important issues of Naloxone access and Good Samaritan legislation. Here in Ontario, we have had 13 straight years of record setting opioid overdose fatalities, yet we have no Good Samaritan Legislation relating to drugs, nor is Naloxone easily accessible. Be sure to come out to Queen's Park, Toronto on September 30th, from 12pm-2pm where you can join me in supporting this amazing cause! You can also help support the FEDUP Rally through their GoFundMe Campaign.
Another way you can get involved in the FEDUP! Rally is through our 'Mural Of Life'. If you have been affected by an opiate overdose, we would love to have you as part of the Mural to help us illustrate just how far reaching opiate overdose is, and the lifesaving power of Naloxone. If you've been affected by the opiate overdose of a friend or family member, witnessed an overdose, overdosed yourself, administered Naloxone/Narcan, or had it administered on yourself - you can visit the 'Mural Of Life' Submission Form and join the list.
Lastly, it's almost been 1 full year since I moved to www.studiolonline.net from my previous home through a Weebly subdomain! Can you believe it? It feels like the time has absolutely flown by. I gotta admit, I absolutely love owning my own domain. It makes me feel far more 'official' than it probably should, but I still love it nonetheless! As I'm sure you're all aware, this costs money. If you are able to help keep things up and running, you can contribute to the associated domain and hosting fees by using the PayPal icon on the right-hand sidebar, or through PayPal to the email address firstname.lastname@example.org
So be prepared come Septemeber; once I'm all settled in to a positive new space, the blog will be back up and running at full speed!
By K. Lanktree
- Freelance Writer -
- Blog Mistress -
- Former IV Drug User -
- Methadone Patient -
- Lover of all things Harm Reduction -
Help keep 'Studio L' online by donating to help offset the costs! Thanks💋